I’m not much of a writer even though I usually have a lot to say. I just simply don’t make the time. Nor do I feel like I have anything interesting to say. But, I made a promise to my bitch til’ the world blows, and I have to uphold the law that is our friendship. So, I will do my very best to update the blogging world about my seemingly ordinary life.
I recently got this man back into my life in a way that I never thought would happen again. At least not so soon.
We have been good friends for almost 10 years and I can talk to him like he’s Rebekkah. We laugh, hang out, goof around and can even have some pretty serious talks. Yes, sometimes a man can share his feelings. We became “special” friends and I couldn’t be happier. But life got in the way and he left town. Years later our lives intertwined again and just like before, “special” things happened. After a few very exhilarating months, he tells me that he is getting married. I played it cool and listened as he told me the minor details of this out of the blue person. Naturally I am beyond crushed and engulfed with jealousy, but I still want to have him in my life. Even if we can now only be platonic friends. 😦 I will spare the world of the next 9 or so months that ensued, and just go right into where I am now. He left ‘her’ and told me, in his own way, that he couldn’t understand how he was so stupid to choose “this thing over there, when he had a good thing over here the whole time.” He then looked at me in the way that makes my insides strangle each other and said, “I’m talking about you ya know.” I casually stated that I knew and played it cool as a cucumber. I was utterly floored at these words that I have been waiting forever to hear. He’s not the kind of man who can be pushed into feelings, so I knew he was speaking from the heart. Needless to say, I am once again at his mercy and will fight tooth and nail to the death to see how in the hell the two of us can pull this emotional heist off. Say what you will, but I will always love this man and will do whatever it takes to keep him in my life. One way or another.
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