In my previous blog I had talked about a particular person. And I am once again on the opposite side of my feelings. I would like to, someday, get over my prepubescent emotional standings but frankly, I just don’t want to. I noticed earlier today that this aforementioned boy had his Facebook activated again. Which means that he
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probably has a phone and I have not heard from him in almost a week. This happens every time. We have an amazing time kickin it for a week or so and then he just vaporizes.
I had to learn the hard way to not push him when it comes to anything emotional. And it drives me absolutely bonkers! This time especially. He said some things to me that I’ve waited too long to hear; as you all know, and now he’s pulling the same old shit agin. And men wonder why women are so fucking crazy. I know better than to sit around and obsess over a stupid little boy but I just don’t want to stop. I had met another guy during our “time out” and have been seeing him for a couple of months. I’m afraid to break it off with him because I don’t know where this other thing is going to end up at. Then just the other night a friend of mine said she has a guy that she wants me to meet. So, I briefly explain my soul crushing dilemma and tell her that I just don’t want anything more than a friendship. But naturally I still agreed to meet him. Can anybody else see where this train is going? Bottom line is, I’m going to continue to ride this derailed train and hope that somehow I can keep us all from charing horribly in the fireball that is barreling toward me.
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